"With them I feel like I'm wasting my time"

madeline_ashley @ 2007-02-04T12:16:00

2007-02-04T17:17:38Z

I LOVE MY LIFE. COLLEGE IS GOING TO BE AMAZING. MY FRIENDS ARE AWESOME. I DID WELL THIS QUARTER. I JUST SPENT 2000 ON NEW STUFF!

i love my life.

madeline_ashley @ 2007-01-06T02:16:00

2007-01-06T07:16:21Z

I think just about everyone quit Livejournal.

madeline_ashley @ 2006-10-11T00:16:00

2006-10-11T00:16:27Z

Mad homework + mad apps + mad SAT study = MAD DEATH

madeline_ashley @ 2006-10-09T23:58:00

2006-10-10T00:07:23Z

Hey guys-

I doubt anyone is reading this because I even forgot I had this.
Well for a short weekend review--

Friday I had my tutor after school, and at night I hung out with Kathryn and we went to Maggie Moos and kept Marisa busy at work for the rest of the night. Then we just hung out and drive around. It was fun.
Saturday morning was homecoming. I met Melissa, Christina, Nicollete, and Sam T there. It was good, we won! 21-17 against Calhoun. Then I went to the mall with Melissa and Alex Wasserman(where I lost my cell phone). It was a lot of fun. I never hung out with Alex outside of school before, we should definitley hang out again sometime soon. Tim stopped by and said hey for like 10 minutes. Then everyone went home shortly after our run to Wendys. Then Tim called my house at 3 AM and he came over and we hung out until 4:30. It was fun, because then he went back the next morning and I wont see him again until Thanksgiving. Which I think it really good for our friendship because when we see too much of one another, we start to fight. So yeah.
Sunday I literally did not get up all day. I was in my pajamas the entire day. It was so relaxing. I watched seasons of Will and Grace all day with my mom because we were too lazy to get up and do anything.
Today I slept lateish and then went to work, and got home at about 6:30. So I took a shower and started my homework.

COLLEGE APPLICATIONS AND THE SATS MAKE ME WANT TO DIE!

</3

madeline_ashley @ 2006-07-23T11:36:00

2006-07-23T15:36:50Z

oh yeah. i have a livejournal.

madeline_ashley @ 2006-06-06T14:56:00

2006-06-06T18:57:07Z

I have more work thats needs to be done than physically possible.

madeline_ashley @ 2006-05-07T19:07:00

2006-05-07T23:06:15Z

oy.

madeline_ashley @ 2006-04-23T21:05:00

2006-04-24T01:07:08Z

Well today was just completley despressing, realizing that school is tomorrow. Thats absolutley grotesque. Well anyway, I went food shopping for my aunt, did homework, and watched TV all day. It was relaxing. But I have a lot more homework then I realized, which sucks. My mom lets me drive pretty much when I want to all by myself, as long as it's not too far :)

Ohh yeah. my juniors finally came in the mail, so now its not just a piece of paper anymore!
Ummmm. sweet 17 in like 50 days!

madeline_ashley @ 2006-04-21T11:39:00

2006-04-21T17:49:32Z

Okay, well I really havent updated in a while, and I actually want to start using this again. Well Wednesday I hung out with Jackie all day and we went to the mall and what not. It was fun and cute! I missed her! Then I slept over her house in Great Neck and we were just bums all day, watching TV and eating all day. It was relaxing. Then I left at like 10 pm and chilled at home. Then went to sleep and woke up late today. Went for a walk with Jamie to town and then came back home. I had so much fun this break, I really did. I'm glad I got to see a lot of Jackie. I can't believe that shes going all the way to California for college. I'm gonna be so sad :( But hey, I get to visit her every few weeks :)! Edmee is going to Fordham which makes me happy and jealous at the same time, I mean I love that she's gonna be so close and that I'll be able to visit her and Tim at the same time, but at the same time, I'm so jealous that she gets to hang out with Tim whenever she wants, and I can't do that. I don't know, I feel so bitchy saying that, but it's how I feel. I mean, I'm probaly just being retarded. But the thing is, I hate it here in RVC, and she keeps me sane when Tim isnt here, so now they're both gone? Now what. I think thats where this is stemming from as opposed to it all being jealousy. I mean I have friends in my grade, so I won't be alone, but it wont be the same with me being the only part of the RVC crew still in RVC. It just makes me sad that August is going to be the worst month ever. I mean Jackie is going all the way to CALIFORNIA. I'm so upset. Tim and Edmee aren't gonna be here. Danielle is only going to Nassau, but she still won't be in school with me. WOW, why can't I just be a senior and leave too? :( Oh well.

Sorry I rambled. I needed it. I'm in a better mood now, then I was when I started writing this.
:)

madeline_ashley @ 2006-04-09T10:27:00

2006-04-09T14:27:35Z

<font size= "5987"I HAVE THE BEST FRIENDS IN THE ENTIRE WORLD.

madeline_ashley @ 2006-03-27T23:14:00

2006-03-28T04:26:42Z

Since I'm not good at doing cuts,

Here I go:
Two Names You Go By:
1. Madeline
2. Mads

Two Parts of Your Heritage:
1. Italian
2. Irish

Two things that scare you:
1. being unsucessful
2. losing people close to me

Two of Your Everyday Essentials:
1. cell
2. a hug :)

Two Things You Are Wearing Right Now:
1. white polo
2. black pants

Two of Your Favorite Bands or Musical Artists:
1. honestly
2. backstreet boys

Two Things You Want in a Relationship:
1.
2. sense of humor

Two Physical Things that Appeal to You:
1. eyes
2. hands

Two of Your Favorite Hobbies:
1. AIM
2. being an alcholic

Two Things You Want Really Badly:
1. to get along with my mother
2. my license

Two Places You Want to go on Vacation:
1. italy
2. alaska

Two Things You Want to Do Before You Die:
1. fall in love
2. fly a plane

Two Things You Are Thinking About Now:
1. debating straightening my hair or not
2. going to sleep

Two of the Stores You Shop At:
1. Old Navy
2. American Eagle

Two people you haven't talked to in a while:
1. Hanna
2. It was Jackie until last week, since then we've spoken everyday :) I missed her!

Two favorite web sites:
1. myspace
2. neopets

Two Favorite Sports:
1. baseball
2. basketball

Two People who will fill this out:
1. edmee already did..
2. maybe liz? she does a lot of quizes :)

Two things you did last night:
1. went to a wake in Brooklyn
2. bought clothes

Two shows you like to watch:
1. Friends
2. Will and Grace

Two of your Favorite People:
1. Tim
2. Edmee

Two Favorite Subjects In College:
1. n/a
2. n/a

Two Favorite Places to eat:
1. outback
2. peter luger

Two things you ate today:
1. iced coffee/ corn muffin
2. white chocolate carmel latte cheese cake

Two people you last talked to:
1. edmee
2. kate

madeline_ashley @ 2006-03-22T23:13:00

2006-03-23T04:25:20Z

So I had an absolutley amazing time in Florida with Tim and Heather! i really miss it. But as usual, as soon as I walked in the door...mommy dearest picked a fight with me and I got grounded. Please care free to tell me what else is new? Anyway, I got out of it because I'm amazing and I chilled with Tim, Heather and Edmee. It was fun. We met up with Anthony and Danielle and did dinner at Fridays. Then played kings in my basement which is the best game ever! Anyway. I went back to school monday and left early for my road test which i passed!! AND I NOW HAVE MY JUNIORS WHICH MEANS I CAN DRIVE TO SCHOOL AND WORK! so about me needing a job? well anyways , going back to school for a full day on Tuesday hit me like a tonn of bricks because I missed soo much work! But what could I expect after I missed 6 days of school to go on spring break with my college friends to Disney World? But it was so worth it! Anyway, school is biting me in the ass and I hate it, I have SOO much work that needs to be done, and I cant seem to get along with my mother for more than 5 minutes at a tme. Honestly, it just doesnt work. I'm not gonna lie, I'm not the easiest person to put up with, but even why I try to appease her needs before mine, it still doesnt work. I've thrown around the idea of boarding school which just gets shot down everytime because "I want it too much and since I dont deserve anything...I don't deserve to leave here and go to boarding school." I think in all reality, she doesnt like her life either and is jealous that I have a possible escape to leave a little extra early. But i mean COME ON! its only an extra year. Which would probaly just be helpful for the two of us because its harder to fight with someone that you don't spend much time with. Although who am I kidding? We fought on the phone everytime I called her from Disney World. I really can't stand the fact that I have the nerve to complain about my situation when there are people who are in even worse parts of their lives. But i really cant stand that i can no longer cope with being a teenager. But she just wont let me be happy, and thats not fair. Just because she doesnt like her life, doesnt mean she gets to ruin mine right? Oh well. I'm sorry that I just keep complaing, but I just need to say it, it makes me feel better. I really with Heather lived in RVC. She just makes me feel better bc she relates to me so much and we get along great. Edmee too, shell listen to me until her ears fall off and give me all the advice in the world. But thats not what I need right now, I just need to get out. But seeing as it doesnt look like thats going to be happening for say another entire school year and 58 days, I just have to learn to put up with it.

I miss Orlando, Florida and all the freedom way too much.

madeline_ashley @ 2006-03-21T07:06:00

2006-03-21T12:07:23Z

So I passed my road test and didn't get any points against me this time!!!! Today I get to bring the car to school :):):)

madeline_ashley @ 2006-03-06T22:43:00

2006-03-07T04:09:58Z

Name: madeline
Eye color: blue
Height: 5'1''
What are you wearing right now? black tee shirt and boxers
Where do you live? rockville centre
Righty or lefty: righty
Who is your closest friend: tim, edmee
Best place to go for a date: beach or movies
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Favorites...
Number: 6
Drink: diet coke
Month: june/december
Juice: apple
Breakfast: crepes
Favorite cartoon character: pooh!

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Have You Ever...

Smoked? yes
Had sex? yes
Bungee jumped? no
Made yourself throw-up? yes
Loved someone so much it made you cry? yes
Broken a bone: yes
Played truth or dare: yes
Been in a police car: nope
Been on a plane: yes
Came close to dying: nope
Been in a sauna: yes
Been in a hot tub: yes
Swam in the ocean: yes
Fallen asleep in school: yes
Broken someone's heart: no
Cried when someone died: yes
Cried in school: yes
Fell off your chair: yes
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call? prob
Saved AIM conversations: yes
Saved e-mails: yes
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What is...

What's your room like: purple and white
What is beside you: my computer
Last thing you ate: ice cream

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Ever Had...

Chicken pox: yes
Sore Throat: yes
Stitches: yes
Broken nose: no
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Do You...

Believe in love at first sight: yes
Like picnics: no
Like school: i dont really hate it anymore
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Questions:

What schools have you gone to: rec center, st agnes, ssms, sshs
Who the last person you called: edmee
Who was the last person you danced with? leah
Who makes you smile: my friends

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Who...

Did you last yell at: tete
Told you they loved you last? edmee!
Who's your loudest friend? tim
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Do you like filling these out: yes
Do you wear contact lenses or glasses: no
Do you like yourself: soyes
Do you get along with your family: nope

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Final Questions:

What are you listening to right now: get low 8-)
Good singer?: not so much
Diamond or pearl: diamonds, i hate pearls
Indoor or outdoor: depends on the weather
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Today did you...
1. Talk to someone you liked: yes
2. Bought something: at the super market i bought pumpkin seeds
3. Get sick: my throat hurts
4. Sang: yes, im singing to edmee right now
8. Talked to an ex: nope
9. Miss someone: no
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Last person who...

10. Was in your bed? me, tim, edmee
11. Saw you cry? edmee
12. Made you cry: my friends
13. Went to the movies with: tim and edmee
16. Ever been in a fight with your pet: not today, thanks.
17. Been to California: yes
18. Been to Mexico: no
19. Been to Canada: yes
20. Been to Europe: yes
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Random...

21. Do you have a crush on someone: no
22. What book are you reading now: othello
23. Best feeling in the world: being loved
24. Future kids names: brooklyn
25. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: nope
26. What's under your bed: a lot of crap
27. Favorite sport to watch: baseball, basketball
28. Favorite Location: new york, LA
29. Piercing/Tattoos: ears
30. What are you most scared of right now: speaking in public
32. Who do you really hate: no one anymore, its not worth wasting my time hating people.
33. Do you have a job: no
35. Have you ever liked someone you didn't have chance with? yeah
37. Are you lonely right now: no
38. Song that's stuck in your head right now: get low
39. Have you ever played strip poker: no
40. Have you ever gotten beat up: no
43. Have you ever been in a mosh-pit: no
44. Ever liked someone but thought they never noticed you? no
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MORE Random

What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex? hair, eyes, sense of humor, hands, teeth
Your Favorite Food? italian
Ever been so drunk you cant remember? no
Have you ever cried for no reason? yes
Are you too shy to ask someone out? not really
Hugs or Kisses? kisses
Butter, Plain or Salted popcorn? butter
Favorite Flower? roses
Have you ever fired a gun? no
Do you like to travel by plane as opposed to car? plane
How many pillows do you sleep with? 0-4
Who are you missing right now? no one really

Using Band names, spell out your name

Meatloaf
Aerosmith
Dreamstreet
Eve 6
Linkin Park
Incubus
Nirvana
Eagle Eye Cherry

What song makes you cry? i dont know

What do you like to listen to before bed? itunes shuffle

a p p e a r a n c e

HEIGHT: 5'1
HAIR COLOR: blonde/brown
EYE COLOR: blue
PIERCINGS: ears
TATTOOS: none

r i g h t n o w

PANTS YOUR WEARING: sweats
WHATS ON YOUR MiND?: going to sleep soon
WHAT TASTE IS IN YOUR MOUTH?: water?
HOW ARE YOU?: excellent, thanks.

d o y o u

GET MOTION SICKNESS?: never
HAVE A BAD HABIT?: biting my nails
GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS?: never

f a v o r i t e s

TV SHOW: laguna beach, friends

CONDITIONER: herbal essences

MAGAZINE: people

h a v e y o u

BROKEN THE LAW: yeah
RAN AWAY FROM HOME: nope
MADE A PRANK PHONE CALL: yeah
USED YOUR PARENTS' CREDIT CARD BEFORE: yes
FELL ASLEEP IN THE SHOWER/BATH: yeah
BEEN IN A SCHOOL PLAY: yes
LET A FRIEND CRY ON YOUR SHOULDER: yeah

r a n d o m

YOUR CD PLAYER HAS IN IT RIGHT NOW: kelly clarkson
WHO MAKES YOU HAPPIEST?: my rvc crew
WHAT'S THE NEXT CD YOU'RE GONNA GET: n/a
LAST TIME YOU CRIED?: like 3 days ago
LAST TIME YOU GOT A REAL LETTER?: today
LAST TIME U GOT E-MAIL?: today
LAST TV PROGRAM YOU WATCHED: oscars
LAST MOVIE YOU SAW AT THE THEATER: brokeback mountain

o t h e r s

1. What is your occupation? None
3. What are you listening to right now? edmee on the other end of the phone
4. What was the last thing you ate? icecream
5. Do you wish on stars? yeah
6. How many cities have you lived in? 1
7. Whats the weather like now? cold and windy
8. Last person you spoke to on the phone? edmee
9. Do you like the person who sent this to you? yes
10. Favorite drink? diet coke, snapple, iced coffee
11. Favorite sport to watch? baseball, basketball
12. Have you ever dyed your hair? yes
13. Do you wear contacts or glasses: nope
14. Pets? 2 turtles, a dog, a tete
15. Favorite month? june, december
16. Favorite food? italain
17. Favorite band? way too many
18. Favorite day of the year? december 31 - january 1
19. What do you do to prevent anger? kill people
20. What was your favorite toy as a child? barbie, boys
21. Fall or Spring? fall
22. Who is the friend you have had the longest? my cousin jackie and melissa
23. What did you do last night? went online, and went to sleep early. talked on the phone for hours.
24. What inspires you? you!
25. What are you afraid of? death
26. Plain, cheese or spicy hamburger? cheese burger
27. Favorite car? bmw
28. Favorite dog breed? maltese
29. Number of keys on your key ring? 2
30. How many years at your current job? none
31. Favorite day of the week? saturday
32. How many states have you lived in? 1

madeline_ashley @ 2006-02-19T20:55:00

2006-02-20T01:56:54Z

today...crackhead died

madeline_ashley @ 2006-02-19T14:04:00

2006-02-19T19:05:45Z

Hey guys! I havent updated in awhile so heres a quick entry. I'm going to the Dominican Republic From Monday Through Saturday with Leah and her mom! I'm gonna miss everyone!!

<3Mads<3

Quizzicle because its not appropriate for my family to read on myspace. werddd

2006-02-11T00:45:07Z

9 "lasts"
last cigarette: yesterday
last beverage: diet pepsi in school
last kiss: evan
last movie seen: citizen kane
last phone call: Tim
last cd played: I-Tunes shuffle
last bubble bath: last wednesday. and it was amazing :)
last time you cried: last week

8 "have you evers".
have you ever dated one of your best friends: no
have you ever skinny dipped: no
have you ever kissed somebody and regretted it: no
have you ever fallen in love: idk, possibly
have you ever lost someone you loved: yes
have you ever been depressed: yes
have you ever been drunk and threw up: yes

7 states you've been to.
1. New Hampshire
2. New York
3. California
4. Florida
5. Tenesseeeeeee
6. Georgia
7. Pennsylvania

6 things you've done today.
1. Sang Disney songs
2. Chilled with Edmee
3. Went to school
4. Passed a physics test!
5. ate mcdonalds apple pies
6. gelled my hair

5 favorite things in no order.
1. music
2. food
3. friends the people
4. friends the show
5. my cell phone

4 people you can tell [almost] anything to. (no order)
1. Edmee
2. Danielle
3. Melissa
4. Leah

3 wishes.
1. To be a pilot
2. own my own airlines
3. be a famous gangster like the rest of my family :)

2 things you want to do before you die.
1. own my own island
2. own a pent house in the city

1 regret:
nothing

madeline_ashley @ 2006-01-30T22:46:00

2006-01-31T03:46:35Z

Today proved how hard I suck at life. it was nice :)

madeline_ashley @ 2006-01-24T12:38:00

2006-01-24T17:40:52Z

Yesterday completley and utterly sucked. So I failed my road test and I was pissed. So I went with Danille to get our nails done :) Then Dana and Melissa came over and we had a little study group thinger for history. So this morning was the history midterm which wasn't too bad at all. I have so much I should be doing right now, but instead im just gonna take a nap.

...pointless entry

madeline_ashley @ 2006-01-23T07:54:00

2006-01-23T12:55:37Z

Getting my nails done and out shopping with my mother, THEN my road test : 5 Hours!!

AHHHHHHHHHHH

kay. I promise I'm going to update everyday

2006-01-21T18:23:20Z

SO last night I hung out with Danielle and Edmee of course. We met up with Steve L, Steve F, Kim R, Adam C, Jerry, Heather K and Kevin C. Jerry picked us up in his monster truck which is so fun! I sat on Edmees lap on the way to the pool hall and then she sat on my lap on the way home. We chilled in taco bell for 2 hours which was boring but edmee and myself were arguing with adam and steve l because they kept saying gay and its politcally incorrect. IDK. It was funny though. Todayyyy I have so much studying to do for midterms all week. JEEZZZ. Monday is my road test which is crazyyy and Fordham is in only 6 days! AHH I cant wait. I love it there, I wish I could just live there. Me, Danielle, Edmee and Melissa are going to Bamboozle in May in NJ. Its gonna be sick, FOB and AAR and other bands too are gonna be there. Tim and Heather are going too I think, so maybe well see them there, but prob not cause the show is gonna be crazy.

OYYYYYYY LETS GO STUDY. peace

madeline_ashley @ 2006-01-20T01:24:00

2006-01-20T06:32:43Z

So I love how I neglect endless amounts of work over the course of the quarter, and then the night before it ends I'm all stressed out and complaining about it, when it was all my fault to begin with. Whatever, Ive been working for 6 hours straight and I got a lot of work done, but I'm not finished yet. Oyy Veyy. Well I'm sick on top of everything which just added to the missing work from this week, which helped nothing. I really dont have the time to be updating, but I'm so bored of doing work its rediculous. I dont have to take an english midterm since I switched into the class recently. I have to write an essay instead, and I'm excempt from the psych final as well. My film one...well I'm not finished with that yet. And its due in hours. Great. I went to the doctor and i have a really bad case of bronchitis which is awesome. He put me on some sort of steriods to try to get the inflamation of my lungs to decrease. Awesome. My inhaler gave up on trying to help me breathe recently which is nice. Whatever. I had my last morning drivers ed today because I'm allowed to miss 2 and I only missed one, and I'm not waking up at 5 o'clock in the morning to go to fucking drivers ed when I'll have to go back home and the go to midterm after. NO WAY BERNIE! Plus, my road test is on Monday and theres no point in going after I take my road test anyway, being that I pass. Cool Beans. ONLY 8 FUCKING DAYS UNTIL FORDHAM! and cheers to that. I cant wait. I'm leaving on Friday after my math regents with Danielle and Edmee which is gonna be sickkk. Its the perfect weekend because theres no tests left AND no homework to put off. Excellent. This wasted a nice 8 minutes of my life. Thanks livejournal.

Night Night hunnybear.

OHHHH BOYYYYYYY

2006-01-17T05:06:44Z

So Tim officially left the rock early Sunday morning and it was hella sad. Over the course of this vacation, i have acquired another new best friend. Edmee<3 Shes crazzzy and I love her to death. This vacation was by far one of the best. I miss Tim but I had him here for a month so it was time for me to return him to his other friends. Only 6e Days until my road test!! And only 10 Days until FORDHAM again, but this time with Edmee and Danielle too! I can't wait.

So lets see, this vacation : Tim<3, Edmee<3, being crazy, drinking like it was our jobs, Danielle + Anthony, hooking up, NEW YEARS, Hanna Stewart, Victor, threatening people, new computer, cigarettes, beer pong, new people, getting sick, throwing up, Christmas, Tims present <3, ice skating, bowling, pool, sleepovers, making fun of people, driving around, road trip to CT, goodbyes, tanning, "hella", shopping, blasting music, friends, laughing, crying, BFF, Darrins Dance Grooves, The Haunted Street...twice, sidekickIII, starbucks, laughing until you cry, the carton, 7-11, beer runs, creepy guys, BJs, VINO, singing, blasting music, ultimate car mixes, our syncromized cascada dance<3...I can't even list everything. I love you guys so much! You know who you are!

PS. Fordham - If you keep stealing my friend, I'm gonna have to kill you :)

madeline_ashley @ 2005-12-18T09:16:00

2005-12-18T14:33:26Z

So this weekend Tim came home for Christmas break. So much fun!

Friday-He came in on the train, and then we drove back to Fordham and picked up ALL his stuff becuase hes changing dorms in January. We went to the caf with everyone when we were there. (Minus Heather and Tare cause they were in the city at the time :( boo) It was fun though. Then we were all carrying stuff to the car. Heather and Taryn started crying when we were done because theyre not gonna see Tim. BUT Brendan and Heather are coming to Long Island over south sides break so we can all hang out, AND SO IS HANNA!, and then were going back to New Jersey and staying at Heathers until I gotta go back to school! Im excited. When we got to Rockville Centre we went bowling with Leah, and Im sick up bowling at this point. OY. But I guess thats what happens when you do it every weekend.

Saturday- Went Christmas shopping with my mother. Then went to Tims and we played FRIENDS TRIVIA!!! and it was amazing! Hung out at his house for the night with Edmee. It was fun. WINE <3 & Dance parties on Allen.

36 DAYS UNTIL MY ROAD TEST!
82 DAYS UNTIL SPRING BREAK IN ORLANDO WITH MY LOVES TIM, HEATHER, AND TARE!!!!

aww I love us <3

madeline_ashley @ 2005-12-11T10:30:00

2005-12-11T15:32:40Z

I LOVE MY FRIENDS <3